June 20

everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday, 

I had wanted my beautifully drawn studies of your  wonderful outfits to be presented as a pleasant, aesthetically appealing series of illustrations. I want to be in a better state than I am now. I am very tired. And I am sad, too. My drawings are not finished; I'll never finish those because I lost the moment in which I was drawing those; I'll never get back what I lost; It was all I could do;

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But then